College Life..

  When I was in high school everything was so easy, my parents provided me with everything but nothing was ever enough, the cup is always half empty. Thinking back the school work was really easy, and these test they would give us were extremely easy as well. Being a current college student I look back and really wish I wasn't so lazy. I started great my freshman year and was a "straight A" student, then came my sophomore year and I started to slack off, junior year I became a pro at being a slacker, senior year I realized that I have to be successful in life and had to get my act together. I was able to gradate with a 3.0 GPA barley.......I wanted to leave Florida, I wanted to leave everything and start fresh again. I got accepted to the University of Hartford so of course I went, with the help of scholarships and Sallie Mae on my side. Once I was there I really regretted it, I had friends from class and my dorm building but I felt alone. Nearly everyday of my life I would sit with my family for dinner and share thoughts and laughter together, now 17 years later that was gone. What I missed more was the love from my mom. My mom has been there for me every single time I've needed her, my rock my true love, even though I don't always show it. So I ended coming back to the sunshine state and enrolling in college here, now this is were my true journey begins.

  I started college pretty easy not worrying about anything and trying to take it as easy as possible. Taking one or two classes at a time, it was great, stress free! I've been working full time and wasting time when I realized I need to step it up and finish ASAP! So I did, I became a full time student. I'm proud to say that I completed my first full time semester successfully and made it to the Deans List. No it was not hard, what was the hardest is actually trying to balance my social life with college and college with work and work with study time. Taking five classes having to give each one of them there own time to make sure I can pass the test. Unlike grade school were you have class work, home work, and tests, in college all I have is about 6 test a semester and that's what determines my grade. In one class all I had was a mid-term and a final that was it. I go to class listen to lecture, take really good notes, go home read the chapter, do the chapter quizzes, and whatever I wasn't sure I would look it up online.

  I rarely have time to go out with friends like I used to, no more clubs, movies and parties but on the bright side I've saved a lot of money on not going out. One huge downfall is that these textbooks are expensive!  Thankfully I won a scholarship and I don't have to pay for classes but textbooks are out of pocket. My mind and thoughts have expanded from learning more and more, this is only the beginning and dreams will be dreams if no actions are made. Either go big or go home, if you don't win you lose. That's my motivation and I won't stop because I can't stop. Graduation is attainable for me now. I start summer semester on Monday, no rest, but money doesn't sleep so why would I? 

Crushed.

So not to long ago I told you about a girl that I was crushing, truth is nothing happend.  Another girl came along, we had been talking for along time, actually 5 months and then we stopped because there's another girl that I really liked but she ended up going to Costa Rica and we stopped talking:( So me and this other girl started talking again the one from five months ago, and we went to see spiderman 2 Thursday at night and afterwards we went to the beach. It was about 2am when we got to the beach, and of course no one just goes to the beach at this time for no reason. We started making out then took it to the car. We had a romantic night under the moon and stars, it was an amazing feeling knowing that it was only me and her on the beach I felt special and made sure she felt special as well. After we were done I took her home  and I felt different. I want to meet someone new, someone I actually relate too.  I just have to much on my mind.